Well…Hello

Hello Friends,

It has been a long time since I have been here. I will open WordPress and start to type something and then decided that I just wasn’t ready to come back. I tried to come back a few times and I wasn’t healed enough. It has now been a year and a month since my dad passed away. Things are getting back to normal for real this time. I am working a new job. We have caught up on our bills and we won’t lose the house. My dad is still a big hole missing in my life, but I am getting better. I am living again.

I got up one morning and I realized that I needed to get back to my life. I needed to get back to the dreams I once had and the things I used to do. It was time to get back to reading and writing. I haven’t completely stopped doing all the things, but I slowed down to the point where I would have been better to just not do the things. But I want to get back to it.

I thought there was no better time to come back then my favorite month of the year. Spooky month! I seriously enjoy the month of October. All my favorite things are around and it makes me happy. So, I start back my blogging journey this month!

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Here are some things I have planned.

1. Watch at least 1 horror movie a day.
2. Read all the Goosebumps and fear street books I have. I have 16 of them.
3. Write 1 spooky short story a week.
4. Write everyday!

I am going to get back on this road, this journey to being something more than just a girl who lives in the south and works in retail. My ultimate goal in life is to make my way to book con. Become a published author. And inspire others to follow their own dreams. I have had enough time to sit in the dark and feel sorry for me. My dad wouldn’t be happy with me if I didn’t keep going after my dreams.

What are your plans for this month??

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What Are You Reading?

What are you reading

 

Hello Friends! I realize it has been a really long time since I have been around. But…hopefully I am back. I got plans! So, I thought the best way to get back into the swing of things is to just jump in and get back to the same old routine. Starting with our Monday, what are you reading?!

Now, I have to be honest. I have not finished reading a book since September of 2017. My dad passed away at the start of September and I just have not been able to get my heart back in the game. I have listened to a few audio books, but that is it. So…I am trying to get back into reading. It’s still a little hard because I can’t seem to focus on what I am reading and my mind likes to wander more now while I am reading. It’s strange. It’s difficult too.

But let’s get to it. I am reading a few books at the moment!

The Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan. This is the first book in the Percy Jackson and the Olympians series.

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The Gender Game by Bella Forrest.

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All Rights Reserved by Gregory Scott Katsoulis. This book is so odd and amazing. I am actually slightly in love with it.

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White Trash Zombie Apocalypse by Diana Rowland. This is the third book in the White Trash Zombie series. I am listening to this on audible and the story is rather interesting. It reminds me of iZombie.

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That is all for now. My hopes are to get a few of these finished this week. At least one anyways, in time for a book review for this week.

Your turn, What are you reading?

What is Coming is Better Than What Has Gone

Hello friends!

I know, it has been a really long time! Like…4 months! Let me fill you in on what has been going on. You see, back in March my parents started the process of getting a brand new home. A home that I would be moving into as well, because until I am married I will be staying home (it’s just smart.) So the whole process started and then…there was a ton of waiting! During that waiting I just couldn’t find the drive to blog. I wasn’t reading as much and I had pretty much stopped writing anything. I started to hate writing book reviews and I really disliked taking request from authors. I just lost all gumption.

Come to find out there was actually more to my loss of drive then I was seeing. You see, our old home had mold. So much mold that it was slowly killing us. Don’t worry though, no one ended up in the hospital or to terribly sick. It did cause some health issues and a lot of them are straightening out as we speak. I was always tired, I didn’t want to do anything, and there was some pain.

In July we found out that the home would be ready and they would be tearing down our old home and bringing out the new one. This meant that we had to get out and find somewhere to stay during the whole process. This lead to 6 weeks in cannibal woods. It was a small home out in the woods. We had no cable, no internet, and even our phones had trouble getting service. It was like stepping back into the stone age!

Here is a picture of our front yard in Cannibal woods! THE FRONT YARD! Nothing but trees all around.
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We hadn’t planned on being in the rental for so long, but things happen. Tuesday of this week my parents were finally able to sign the final papers and the rest is…still in progress. We are at home. WE ARE HOME! I have an office!! I am in the process of setting it up and getting my books out, but I have to dig out my bookshelves first. The old book shelves are going to be temporary though because I am doing a whole 10 foot wall of shelves for books. I can’t wait. I will even have a reading area in my office. I’m so excited to get it all set up! And the best part is that I have a whole separate room for my bed! It’s great.

So, this is my blog to let you all know that I will be back. I am back! Hopefully starting next week I will have some fun book related blogs going on, maybe only once a week for a little bit. I am even considering joining the whole booktube world and get a YouTube channel going…though not many people are happy with YouTube at the moment, so I’m still considering that.

Tell me, what have you been up to!? I have so many blog post to catch up on!

Rejecting a Review

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Hello friends!

So, I know that I have not been active on my blog lately, but I have still been reading and writing in my own time. I do a lot of writing now days, at least 1,000 words a day, though I am not working on any one particular item. I am waiting to get my new office set up, hopefully with in the next month or so.

The other day I was contacted by someone who wanted me to read and review a book for their client. I was ecstatic seeing as I have not had a review request in a while. With an inactive blog like mine, you don’t get too many. I forgot how stressful it could be. I took the request and gave it my very best and the worst thing happened…

I could not finish the book. Oh yeah, Heather DNF’d a book. I don’t like doing that. I hate not finishing a book, but when you have so many books that you want to read, that book you are not enjoying can terribly slow down your reading progress. Sadly, this resulted in me having to email the publicist and informing her that I could not finish the book. I thought long and hard on how to approach the situation and I was afraid of cutting ties to other reviews.

Here is what it all comes down to. As a reader and reviewer, what I read is my choice. No one pays me to read their books. No one pays me to put a review on my blog for their books. Yes, I could get more traffic to my blog, but enjoying what I read is a little more important for me.

The thing that I hate more than anything is giving a bad review for anything. I will give semi bad reviews, but most of the time I will avoid really negative reviews. Although, I have been known to leave a few bad reviews on Goodreads.

This book that I read I did give up to 30% before I sat it down for good. It’s hard to know when to put down a book. And to be honest with you, why do we feel the pressure to pick a certain spot to stop at? Again I say, most of us read for the joy of reading. No one is paying us to do this. If you don’t like a book, put it down and move on.

One day, when I have published my own book, I hope to get honest reviews. I want to know if someone disliked my book so much that they couldn’t even finish it. As a writer, listening to things like that could make me a better writer. I am not out to please every reader, but if someone were to put down my book I would want to get down to the reason of it. Did they put it down because it just wasn’t their cup of tea? Did they put it down because I needed to put more work into it? Did they put it down because the writing was horrible? The more you know about how your readers feel, the better a writer you become.

With all that said, I have learned a valuable lesson with this rejected review. Reading is what I do for fun. It is a hobby just as my blog is my hobby. If something causes me to lose interest for my hobby, you leave that thing behind so you can get back to the love of the hobby.

I will also give any book a try, but as soon as I am not into it, I will not feel bad for putting it down.

How about you? Do you DNF books? Why or why not? And if you do DNF books, at what point do you let yourself be okay with moving on?

Just a Little Thought

Hello Friends!

I realize that my blog has been very inadequate lately. In all reality, it started dying about August on 2016. I don’t know where my head has been. I mean, my head hasn’t been here mentally. Physically, I go through the motions of everyday life, just the things that will keep me going, like eating, sleeping, and going to work. I think I have become a good little actress, pretending to be present when my mind has been so far away. Hiding from something maybe. Well, I know what I have been doing. I have been battling demons. Battling demons and digging my way out of deep holes of…depression, regret, anxiety?

There is also the issue with the fact that I have been dealing with what to post. I want to post things that are meaningful. I want to inspire people with my words, because it’s all I have to offer. I have written book reviews, movie reviews, and little tidbits about TV shows I am interested in. I have written short stories and random ramblings. But what does it all mean? What is the purpose? I have a few hundred followers, but not many that even comment on a post. Which I deserve because I don’t comment much on other blogs myself. But it also means that things I have been saying just don’t mean much to others.

I am facing the music. When I sit down to write a book review, I am not writing about the author, the structure, or the tone of the book. I am writing about the story, which means I pretty much love everything I read. As a writer myself, I know the work that goes into writing a story. I have that in the back of my mind with every book I read. Usually what I read is exactly what I wanted to read. I don’t get stuck too much on the structure, the proper use of this or that, or any of the technical stuff, so what am I really adding to the world with my review?

It’s the same thing with movie reviews, though, I tend to be a little more critical with movies. Mainly horror movies because that is my genre of choice. I always feel like I have more to say about a movie than a book and sometimes that just makes me feel like an idiot. I feel like, maybe I am not getting what I should be getting from books. But who is to say what I am actually supposed to get from books? I read for pleasure just as I watch movies for pleasure.

What it all boils down to is what am I writing this blog for? Who am I trying to fool with a review here and there? What is my purpose for this blog? I have had so many blogs in the past and they have always been about feelings and what I have been doing. This blog started off with stories of how awkward I am and some how came to this point where it was about reading and writing. Can I really have a blog that is just about that? I want to say my life is about more than reading and writing, but here lately that is basically all it is. I don’t do much more than that.

With that being said, I am learning to listen to the world. I am hearing things that people say. I am on a journey to learn how to control my temper and my urges. By urges I mean eating, sleeping, and just laying around. My urges to be lazy. Nothing crazy like hiding bodies in my closet…don’t look in my closet.

I am trying to get a handle on myself and become more of a well rounded adult…isn’t that the adult thing to do? Not that I am much of an adult, trust me, age is just a number. I am a reader, writer, and a dreamer. I will always have my head in the clouds and a story waiting to bust through. But I want to be more than just that. I want to be…

Truth is, I don’t know what I want to be. I want to be a published author. I want to be healthy. I want to be fun and outgoing.

Okay, so maybe I do know what I want to be, I just don’t know how to get there.

So, while my blog will continue to be about my writing and what I am reading, it will become more. It will be about movies that I absolutely loved…or hated. It will be about my new passions and old. It will be about how things in my life change and how they stay the same. It will be about me pushing my own limits and stepping up to my full potential.

I just don’t know how to make it all happen, or how to put it into words that people want to read. I am a writer though, and I will figure it out.

What Are You Reading?

What are you reading

Hello Friends!

This has been a weird week for me. I haven’t been able to focus on a book. I started reading one and it was so bad that I had to put it away. It wasn’t something anyone should read to be honest. It was horribly written and the subject was not cute. It was victim of an author trying to take a serious subject and make it sexy. I have a review of that one coming soon. It just ticked me off.

I started on a book last night but I didn’t really enjoy it, so I may be DNFing that one too.

I am reading one book though that I am actually enjoying.

Kings Cage by Victoria Aveyard

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Seriously, the cover alone is amazing. I know this series has gotten a lot of crap, but I love it! I have only read a few chapters, so everything is basically still being built up and reminders are in place. I’m just hoping its going to be as good as the last two books.

That is really the only book I can actually claim this week. It’s the only one that I am seriously reading. Everything else has been a search for something, though I am not sure what I am looking for. I should probably just focus on this one book and try to find something after I finish this one.

What are you reading?

Book Review: Delirium

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Title: Delirium
Author: Lauren Oliver
Publisher: HarperCollins
Published: February 7th 2012
Genre: Fantasy | YA

 

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Delirium is about a world where love his been outlawed and cured. The cure happens at 18 and everything from then on is easier, happier, or so says the government. Lena has never questioned the cure or the sickness that is love. She knows that the cure didn’t work on her mother and that is, or was, her only fear. But then she meets someone new, a boy, who makes her rethink everything in her life. Her eyes are open now and things are not as simple as she once believed them to be.

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Delirium, while not the best book I have ever read, made me really think about my own world and the things I take as truth. This story can be compared to our own lives in some ways that it’s scary. Lena’s world has been run by loveless people and the world is a loveless place. At 18 everything is decided for her, from who she will marry, to where she work, how many kids she will have, and where she will live. She has no choice in the matter of her life. Even the girl she has known most of her life, her best friend, will never be as close to her as she is now.

This is an amazing book because of the fear I got from reading it. Not just the fear, but the sadness. There are people living without love, doing the same thing over and over again and not caring. They want this bland life because it is easier than feeling anything other than content. But it makes you wonder if they even feel content, deep down they have to feel some kind of sadness for what they have lost.

I do like the way love is pinned as a disease and how well the author explained why it was a problem. When I first started reading it all I could think was how stupid the concept was, but the more I thought about love and the effect it has on our bodies, it actually made sense. I found myself at one point thinking how I wouldn’t mind having a procedure to remove love from my brain, but as I continued reading the story I realized how much love is needed in the world. These people don’t just lose love for the opposite sex, they don’t just lose the need to be with someone, they lose the need and love for family and children. That is no life to live.

By the end of the book my heart was racing for Lena to get out and away from this crazy world. I wanted her to save all of the poor souls who had been corrupted. With that being said, I can still see the draw of a life that is chosen for you. Not having to make your own big life decisions could be such a stress free way to live, but is it really worth it.

I like a book that puts me into deep thought, and this book did just that. It made me question my own reality.

rating3starsI enjoyed it, but I may not finish the series and one read through was enough.

What Are You Reading?

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Hello Friends!!

It’s that time again. I actually have something new this week. And I am not reading just one book. Come on, you didn’t think I could last that long reading just one book at a time did you?

Let’s jump right in!

Artifacts, Dragons, and other Lethal Magic by Meghan Ciana Doidge
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I love love love this series. I love the main character and all the hot guys she has in her life. I love that she owns a bakery and kicks butt. I love everything about this series. It is also feeding the deep dark void that was left when Kim Harrison finished her Hallows Series. Now I have this, and Jade, and cupcakes!

The Raven Boys by Maggie Stiefvater
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I have been known to avoid a series of books just because of the hype. I avoided this one for that reason and now I am asking myself “Why, why, why?!” So far it has been such an amazing story and I can’t get enough of it!

Undercurrent by Paul Blackwell
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I don’t have much to say about this one yet. I haven’t been reading it as much as the other two books. I can’t help it, I love the other books so much they have consumed me. But so far Undercurrent has been interesting and I am hoping it gets a little bit more fast paced than what it is. Okay, so I got a little bored with it! But I am just at the beginning. I will at least give it to half way before I give up on it.

That is all I have for this week. I am hoping to finish all these books this week. Which is very likely. I am almost done with The Raven Boys and almost at the half way point with Artifacts, Dragons, and other Lethal Magic. If I had any days off this week (I do but it’s later in the week) I would for sure finish them.

So, what are you reading?

Book Review: Ensnared

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Title: Ensnared
Author: A.G. Howard
Publisher: Amulet Books
Published: January 6th 2015
Genre: Genre: Fantasy | YA | Retelling

 

 

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Ensnared is the final book in the Splintered trilogy by A.G. Howard. In the final installment, Alyssa travels into the looking-glass world, where everything is distorted and backwards from Wonderland, to save her human Knight and her Wonderland King.

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I honestly hated most of this book. I had to force myself to finish reading it. The first book was so magical and fun and probably should have ended there. The second book was okay, but really unnecessary. Then this last book was just boring and stretched out.

I was okay with the love triangle until we reach this last book. Then it gets really annoying. For me, it annoyed me that she was so stuck on Morpheus when Jeb had sacrificed so much for her. Morpheus just pulled at her until she did what he wanted her to do the whole time.

There wasn’t much about this book that I liked. I thought the ending would make me happy, as I had already read the last chapter before I read even the second book. I couldn’t help myself, it was sitting on the shelf at the library so I picked up the last book and read the last chapter. Had I stopped then and there I would have been okay with this trilogy. But reading the last book put a bitter taste in my mouth.

rating2starsI would suggest the first book, but stop there.

What are You Reading?

What are you reading

Hello Friends!! It’s that time again. Time to take over the world!

Wait…that’s not right. That’s next week.

What are you reading?

I am still reading Replica by Lauren Oliver
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It’s not that I am not enjoying the book, I have been having an issue with my energy this week. I seem to always be super tired. I will get to read a few pages before I am passing out. The most I have read is at work on my lunch breaks and that is only 30 minutes. I am not a fast reader, so 30 minutes is not enough to finish the little bit I have left.

But, the great thing is I will probably finish this book today.

So I have two books waiting for me to pick them up. I’m not sure which one I will start.

The first is Heartless by Marissa Meyer.

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I love Marissa Meyer so this may be the obvious choice…BUT!

Undercurrent by Paul Blackwell

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I found this book at Dollar Tree and I couldn’t pass it up. It sounds so good!

So those are my choices for my next book. Maybe I can get to both of them this week. Fingers crossed.

What are you reading?