Well…Hello

Hello Friends,

It has been a long time since I have been here. I will open WordPress and start to type something and then decided that I just wasn’t ready to come back. I tried to come back a few times and I wasn’t healed enough. It has now been a year and a month since my dad passed away. Things are getting back to normal for real this time. I am working a new job. We have caught up on our bills and we won’t lose the house. My dad is still a big hole missing in my life, but I am getting better. I am living again.

I got up one morning and I realized that I needed to get back to my life. I needed to get back to the dreams I once had and the things I used to do. It was time to get back to reading and writing. I haven’t completely stopped doing all the things, but I slowed down to the point where I would have been better to just not do the things. But I want to get back to it.

I thought there was no better time to come back then my favorite month of the year. Spooky month! I seriously enjoy the month of October. All my favorite things are around and it makes me happy. So, I start back my blogging journey this month!

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Here are some things I have planned.

1. Watch at least 1 horror movie a day.
2. Read all the Goosebumps and fear street books I have. I have 16 of them.
3. Write 1 spooky short story a week.
4. Write everyday!

I am going to get back on this road, this journey to being something more than just a girl who lives in the south and works in retail. My ultimate goal in life is to make my way to book con. Become a published author. And inspire others to follow their own dreams. I have had enough time to sit in the dark and feel sorry for me. My dad wouldn’t be happy with me if I didn’t keep going after my dreams.

What are your plans for this month??

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Day Gone Sour

October, my favorite month.  The smell of fall, the crunching of bright leaves, and awesome horror movies all over TV all month long.  It should have started with a bang.  I should have woke up excited and ready to get this month going.

As soon as I woke up this morning I wanted to call out of work.  I wanted to turn my light back out and drift back into a dream world where everyday is as awesome as Halloween.  Instead, I drug myself out of bed, hopped in the shower and got ready for work.  I decided I would eat breakfast at work, so I rushed out of the house and to my car.  I watched as all the cats came running out from under my car and onto the back porch.

I have so many black cats I could start and adoption agency for witches.  I love all my black cats though.  Especially Ash, he has brilliant green eyes and a bushy tail.  We have a ton of kittens, which are the ones that sleep under my car.

Something kept telling me to look under my car, but I didn’t think I really needed too.  The youngest kittens, the ones that didn’t know any better were already on the back porch.  I started the car and waited. I tapped the breaks a few times to shake the car, the last warning to any cats left under my car.

Satisfied that no cats or kittens were left, I backed the car up.

That’s when it happened, the slight “pop” of my tire rolling over what I brushed off as a rock.  Rocks sound like that sometimes, but something in me knew it wasn’t a rock.  I kept backing up, and my headlights hit it.  The last remaining kitten, that for some reason didn’t get the warnings.  The poor kitten that didn’t even try to run, and had it’s poor head crushed by my car tire.

I watched it flail around, like it was trying to get up, but I am sure it was just the last of it’s nerves dying.  Please, God, let it have been the last of its nerves dying.  I keep trying to tell myself that it died instantly and felt no pain, but I just can’t bring myself to believe it.

I gave it all the usual warnings!  All the other cats got it.  It usually ran with the other kittens, not that you can tell them apart since they are mostly black.  Yet, there it was, crushed.  One of my black kittens is now gone, because I didn’t listen to my intuition and check under the car before I backed out.

I feel like such a horrible person.  I love all my cats, even the ones that hiss and run from me.  I am a cat lover.  I take care of them.  Why did it have to be my tire that crushed it?  I can’t help but to feel sick, and I can’t get the image out of my head.

The worst part!  The mother cat of this kitten went rushing to the flailing kitten.  She actually ran to the dying baby…I just hope cats don’t hold grudges…I killed her baby!

So far, October is not off to a good start.  Fingers crossed that it gets better.  Maybe I can stop feeling so sick about the kitten, I mean, I have plenty more and I was getting to where buying food was super expensive.  😦

Cat lovers of the world, please forgive me.

It’s Finally Here!

I am horrible at blogging.  I get it going for a while, then come back randomly for updates.  I have all these great ideas that I want to blog about, but by time I get around to doing it I just don’t want to write them anymore.

I just read two books (actually three, but one was a re-read) and I would love to do reviews on them because they were both really good books.  Hopefully I can get around to that.  I also went to the movies this weekend and saw Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs 2, and I want to do a review on that too (spoiler: It was awesome!).  Since it is a new season (yes!!) all these wonderful shows are starting back up, or premiering.  I honestly want to set aside a day to review All those shows, my expectations on them, my thoughts on what will happen, and my overall opinion on this/that weeks episodes.  Simply because I love talking about the shows that I watch.  I am going to keep a notebook by my side so I can take notes for each show.

But none of that is really important.  What is important is that today is the last day of September.  You know what that means?  My favorite month of the year!! I seriously love October!  I love everything about it.  I love the smells, the cool weather, Halloween, the awesome shows and movies.  There is nothing bad about October!

This year I want to finally carve a pumpkin because I have never done that before.  I want to make pumpkin pie.  I want to finally get around to making my aprons.  I want to make a costume, or at least parts of it.  I want to do all kinds of stuff in the spirit of Halloween.  Seriously, they should change October to Halloween, because the whole month of October is all about Halloween.

Any other ideas of awesome crafts or baking things I can do for Halloween?  I want to do it all!

So, keep an eye out for things.  I don’t know when it’s going to happen, but things are about to get fun around here!

Heather, where have you been?

I don’t know who reads my blog, or even cares to read, but for some reason I always feel the need to explain my absence.  So, my absence this time was due to laziness.

I have found something about myself that I didn’t know before.  I do this weird thing, where I get super excited to try something new, but then I fear I will mess it up.  When the fear sets in, I shut down.  I wait until the last minute to get it done, just because if I mess it up…I don’t know actually.  It really makes no sense what so ever!  I’m just a strange person.

I haven’t done much since I have gone MIA.  I have been working a lot with a new script that I am writing for the youth groups drama team.  I love those kids so much, and I want nothing more than for them to succeed in life.  I am giving them all I can.  I feel like it has become a battle though.  My ideas against what is “acceptable” in church.  For me, there are issues that need to be addressed, things that teens need to know exist.  Sadly, some church folks don’t agree with me.  Luckily, up to this point, the two leaders that I am working with on the drama team has liked my ideas.  Meaning, it’s not just me fighting to give these ideas a chance to live.

On top of that, I have been trying to finish up the freelance writing class I have been taking, along with baking cakes and getting classes set up for cake decorating.  This week I am working on doing a cake that is for a spa party and it has been requested that I do a fingernail bottle shaped cake.  It’s another one of those things I got excited about, the feared about.  It should have been done already.  I think my small kitchen plays a role in it not being done as well.  I seriously need my own kitchen!  Unfortunately, I can not afford my own place, so I am stuck living with my parents and stealing the kitchen when I can. Which, there is usually only one solid meal cooked at my house, but for some reason, when I go to make a cake or cake pops everyone needs to get into the kitchen.

Let me make this clear.  I live in a double wide trailer.  Ever seen a kitchen in a double wide trailer?  Some are actually nice, but mine is tiny.  It is not a good place to try to be creative, but I make do.  I think if I had a bigger kitchen, or less annoying family I would bake more, who knows.

October is coming!! It is seriously my favorite month ever!  I have so much to do! I need to figure out a costume and what treats I want to make.  I have to carve a pumpkin.  I have to make my aprons before October. So much to do.

What is coming up this week?  Well, I recently made a giant birthday cookie for my brothers birthday, so I will share that with you.  Wednesday is just another fun wacky day!  Thursday I may be sharing my fingernail polish bottle cake with you…it may be a fail, but I might surprise myself!  Friday I will finally show you what I have had in the works for about a month now.  It’s fun with googly eyes!

Anyways, if you have been waiting for a post…HERE IT IS!  If you are reading my blog for the first time WELCOME! I hope you stay!