Happy New Year!

Happy 2018

Hello Friends!

It has been a long time, hasn’t it? Things have been a little crazy for me. As most of you know, my dad passed away in September of 2017 and life has just not been the same. Some days I felt like it was getting worse. Some days I wanted to run away to a place where no one knew me and start life all over again. But here I am. I am okay…for the most part. I made it through Christmas fairly well, but the new year was harder to get through. I guess it’s because I have entered the new year with one vital person missing.

It has been hard, as anyone that has lost a parent would know. I have had friends help me through.

But that brings me here today. To tell you all HAPPY NEW YEAR. And to promise that I am working on getting my blog back up and running. What am I going to do with this blog? I am still not sure. Hopefully there will be a name change in the future, going back to Awkward Heather instead of readerwriteredreamer. I want a shorter web address. I do hope that something great comes of this. Maybe I can go back to what it was before. Book reviews, movie reviews, Anime, and some writing thrown in there. It’s all the things I love in one place. Who said a blog has to follow one set format? And I plan on seeing more movies this year!

I actually have a few plans for this year that are going to be fantastic. I am even planning a trip to California at some point this year, and that is something I am super excited about. I haven’t sat down and written out my 2018 goals yet, but I will be doing that today. I am just trying to get my mind focused again. I worked two jobs for a few weeks. I haven’t been reading. I have not finished a book since September. Which makes me sad since I was ahead of the game for a little bit on my reading goal. But when things change in life…major changes…it’s hard to keep on track.

I will update you all on my goals for 2018 as soon as I know what they are. As of right now, the biggest goal is to get back to something normal, like it was before my dad passed away.

Tell me, What are your 2018 goals?

Realizing Reality

Writing is pretty much my life.  It doesn’t pay the bills, yet.  Not many people read what I write, simply because it is not available yet.  I have written one novel and it took four years to do that.  I wasn’t very dedicated to getting it written.  I self published it in March of last year.  A few people bought it the first month, then sales disappeared all together.  I lost my reason for writing. Actually, I forgot why I started writing in the first place.  I started writing poetry because I was angry.  I used poetry as a way to kill people without actually killing them.  I miss those poems, they were actually really good.

I stopped writing poetry and started writing short stories.  Most of my stories were of lives I wanted to live.  You know the kind, the ones where the hot popular guy would fall in love with silly me.  Then, I started writing because I loved to write.  I had stories in my head, stories I had been telling since I was old enough to talk.  There were voices in my head, begging to be heard, begging me to write down what they were saying.  I realize that I probably sound like a loony, but it’s true.

About a month ago, a teenage girl got a hold of my book.  She fell in love with it and kept telling me how much she loved it.  Now, a few of my friends had a copy of the book, but not many of them actually read it.  That’s a huge shot to the ego when friends won’t even read it.  For some reason, this teenage girl gave me the drive to start writing again.  I never really stopped writing really, I just stopped writing novels.  My biggest dream in life is to be a writer.  Hopefully, one day, a best seller, right up there with Stephen King!  I even have this odd dream that I will one day co-write a book with Mr. King.  I absolutely love him and his twisted mind.

So, I have started writing again.  It’s coming to me easier this time.  I am not fighting to stay on track.  I am pounding out the stories like it is my soul purpose in life!  My goal is to finish my second novel, rough draft, by the end of this month and things are right on track!  I am so excited because I have never felt so…in the right place!  My daily goal was to write at least 1,000 words a day.  That only lasted for a day.  I started writing 2.000 words a day, and that has stayed pretty constant.  Which is helping a lot.  I am not writing too much and losing the story, yet I am writing enough to meet my deadline.  I haven’t missed a day yet.

I got to thinking today, if I had as much dedication to losing weight as I do to writing, I would be set.  I would be one skinny, awesome author!  But for some reason, writing is the only area in my life that I can make myself do anything.  It is the love of my life.  I can be anyone I want when I write.  I am not restricted to the normal set backs in life.

I have found home, and it only took me a year to find it again.  I feel like the break really put things into perspective.  One day, I will be everything I have ever dreamed I would be.  And I will be there, just as awkward as I am today!