Here’s To Hoping


I know that I usually have a short story to post on Monday’s, but my weekend was extremely busy and last week I was so down in the dumps that I just couldn’t bring myself to write.  I will have it for you tomorrow though and that is a promise.

Since I don’t have a short story for you I thought I would tell you about my weekend, my wonderful friends and family, and how I may have dug myself a little out of this depression I have been in.

It all started Friday.  I was just a mess really.  I had a meeting to go to at church and it took all day to get ready for it.  I didn’t want to go to the meeting because I just wanted to hide away all day.  But I did it.  I forced myself out of the house and went to the meeting.  Being around my church family always puts me in a better mood.  Though, sometimes that mood doesn’t last very long.

After the meeting I ended up going to the movies with my brother and some of our friends.  We saw Godzilla, which turned out to be a really good movie.  I was so happy that my brother invited me to come along because I needed it.  That is when my spirits started rising a little.

Saturday I went to the SC comicon, the very first one SC has had.  Let me tell you, it was fantastic.  There were so many people there dressed in costumes. I got to meet some authors and some cosplay chick.  I got to see a lot of great art work too.

The best part though was the cute guy that was flirting with me.  Now, my blog is called the Awkward Life of Heather for a reason, and you are about to find out why.  I am a writer.  Most writers are very introverted, some of us just don’t do well around other people.  I am growing out of this and learning that I actually like to be around other people.  But the one thing that I still fail to notice is when a guy is flirting with me!

Yes, you read that right, the guy was flirting with me and I was completely oblivious!  I thought he was cute and I did what I always do.  I clammed up and had no idea what to say.  Of course, after the fact I had all kinds of things I could have said.  And I wonder why I am single.  I felt so bad that I almost went back to the comicon just to flirt back.  It took my mom telling me the guy was flirting with me for me to even see it.  I am that oblivious.  But at the end of the day it gave me a bit of an ego boost to know that someone wanted and did flirt  with me.

Saturday night I ended up at the mall with my cousin and we walked all over the mall.  It was great.  I tend to be a bit eccentric and danced around stores and sang along to the songs I knew.  I evidently have no shame when it comes to some things.

The best part about my trip to the mall was going into the shoe store.  It wasn’t the shoes that got my attention, it was the socks.  Little fact about me, I don’t wear matching socks.  I do this on purpose because it’s kind of funny.  It’s like having a secret that no one else knows.  At the shoe store in the mall they sold a pack of socks that didn’t match.  It was 12 socks that were all different!! It was like they made the pack just for me!

Okay, I know that others do the whole non matching socks thing, but I like to think the world revolves around me sometimes.

Then Sunday came around.  I have been so exhausted all weekend that I just didn’t have the energy to even write a blog for Sunday.  I am sorry for that, but sometimes we all need a little break.  I had a thing for church in the morning and grocery shopping with my mom.  Then after dinner we made a fun run to Walmart for nothing in particular.  Pixel got a new collar out of it.

I am wore out.  I am thoroughly exhausted. I am happy.

That is the most important part.  I am so very happy right now.  I still have things that bother me, like the fact that I didn’t write part 5 of my short story, or I haven’t worked on my novel in months, or my bank account is getting low and I really need to get a job now.  But I have some really great things going in my life right now and I think I am going somewhere great.  I have a plan and if I work hard I know I can beat this depression and I can keep my head above water.

Sometimes you just have to get a little water up your nose before you learn to swim.


The Rules of Writing

No, I am not going to make a list of rules for writing.  Every writer has their own style and some times rules are broken…and it’s  good.

But there is one rule that should never be broken, one rule that can make or break a novel.  I am no expert and I don’t even have a book published yet.  I did self-publish, but I quickly realized how much work my novel needed and I took it down before I offended anyone.

Hang with me, I will get to the point in a moment.

I am going to a comicon this Saturday.  I was super excited, but I didn’t know any of the authors.  I hit up Amazon and bought the Kindle version of a few books that I thought I would enjoy.  I was super excited about one because it was about vampires and demons.  If you have read any of my post before, you already know my obsession with anything supernatural.

There are not a lot of books that I don’t like.  When I do find a book that I don’t like, I will at least finish it.  I read 50 Shades of Grey…the entire series.  They were not very good, horrible story, but I have this thing where I have to finish a series if I have started it.  It doesn’t apply to every series, but most of the time I do.

The book that I bought about demons started off…bad.  I kept reading, hoping that it would get better.  Last night I sat it down for the last time.  I will not be finishing the story and I will be nice enough to not tell the world what book this is.  Seeing as it is a self-published book, you probably won’t come across it.

I have found some really great self-published books, so this didn’t bother me.  It was the writing that blew it for me.  The story is there…it has potential, but it needs a new author.

There were a few things wrong with it.  First, all the grammatical and spelling errors attack you in the first few pages.  It’s like the author wrote the book and published it the same day it was finished.  All writers know you can’t do that.  No matter how much you want to share your story, there is a process to this.  Even I had my story edited a few times by friends before I thought to throw it to the wolves.

Second issue with this book was the length of the paragraphs.  I read one paragraph that took up two pages.  That is just too much.  There should be a break in there somewhere.  I saw plenty of places where it could have easily been broken into a new paragraph.  Also, there was way too much information thrown at you in these paragraphs.  And most of the words just ended up being a jumbled mess in my brain.

And then there is the last issue, the one that caused me to throw in the towel and stop trying to be nice to this author by finishing her book.  This is the one rule that should always be followed when you are writing.  When you are writing dialogue and you have two people talking, their dialogue should be separated into new paragraphs every time the dialogue switches characters.  Did that make sense?

As I said before, this book had a two page paragraph.  In that paragraph there were two people talking to one another.  There were no breaks to tell me a different person was talking, so in my mind they all had the same voice.

Am I wrong thinking this?  Is there some kind of writing style where it’s okay for the author to confuse their readers?

Am I the only one extremely annoyed with it?

I was so frustrated with this book that I almost threw my Kindle across the room and cursed it into oblivion.

I was a reader before I was a writer.  I told stories before I started writing, but my mom used to read to me when I was younger.  In my experience, most writers were readers first.  We know what we like when we read and we see the rules of writing right there on the pages of our favorite books.  I have never read a book where the dialogue was so messed up.

That is my rant for the day.  Did any of it make sense?  Have you found any self-published books that you just couldn’t stand?

Free Comic Book Day

Free Comic Book Day 1

Can you tell I was super excited? I couldn’t control myself! lol

Yesterday was free comic book day.  Honestly, I had never heard of it and when I found out about it, I thought it was just for my local comic book store.  I quickly found out that it was a nation wide thing.  With a little research I found that this day happens the first Saturday in May every year.  Who knew??

I have never been big into comic books.  I always thought they were just an easy read.  Please don’t throw stones at me just yet.  My views have changed recently.  Since I lost my job in February I have ventured into the world of…well…the nerd.  I have always been a nerd at heart.  Really.  I just never had the time to embrace my nerdness.  I have been working since I finished high school.  I have also gone to college and worked while in college.  In high school I was too depressed to care.

Now I find myself with free time, a lot of free time, time to do all the amazing things that I have ever wanted to do.  Like watching anime.  I loved Sailor Moon as a child, I knew it would be a breeze for me to get into anime and I was right.  Not to mention I have always had a love for Japan…where anime comes from!

I have also had time to get into gaming and will be uploading my first game play video on YouTube tomorrow. I am super excited about that.  I have been into Doctor Who for maybe 2 years now, which seems to be a staple in the nerd world.  Not to mention all the other movies and shows that I have been addicted to over the years.  The world of the nerds has allowed me to not be ashamed of my love for Power Rangers and Disney movies.  It’s where the adults who refuse to let go of the child inside.  It’s a magical world and I have fallen down the rabbit hole.

My last venture was comic books.  A friend had told me about Free Comic Book Day and I was like…what?  I knew I had to go check this out.  I had to see what it was all about and I am so very grateful for the experience.

Imagine a line of people excited for comic books.  A line of people that love Doctor Who as much as you do.  A line of people that still giggle at stupid kiddie jokes and enjoy the simple innocent things in life.

That is what this day ended up being for me.  And I got to share the experience with my mom and my brother.

I have spent most of my life feeling like I didn’t belong.  Yesterday I found somewhere that was crowded and I didn’t automatically want to fight everyone around me.  Because these people around me were like me.

It was a fantastic day and I can’t wait for Free Comic Book Day next year!

In two weeks Comicon comes to SC.  Right in my hometown’s backyard.  I can’t wait to meet more of these wonderful people.  I am so excited that this is where the life of the unemployed has led me. It’s exciting.

Now I just have to figure out how to make money with this new found nerd life!

Thank you nerd world for waiting for me to wake up to your awesomeness!

Free Comic Book Day Haul

My comic book haul