I am getting a little frustrated with myself. I keep sabotaging my own health. I have friends that have been eating healthy, making healthy choices, and losing weight. Me…I have lost 6 pounds in 10 weeks. One friend has lost 10 pounds in 6 weeks. I want to blame it on my PCOS, tell everyone because of my body I just can’t lose the weight as easily.
Truth is…I keep falling off the wagon. I keep stuffing in the sweets and sitting around the house on my days off. Which…I kind of deserve the rest on my days off because I am working a lot lately. But again, it’s just an excuse. An excuse that I lean on to make myself feel better about not losing weight.
At least I am really good at maintaining weight. While I haven’t lost any this week, I haven’t gained any either. Unless the scale is busted again and it’s reading wrong.
I kind of didn’t buy groceries last week, so I spent a few days eating McDonald’s food. Not the healthiest and goes against my desire to rid my diet of fast food. My only other option is the grocery store, but I have been so hungry that there is nothing healthy that catches my eye. Excuses…I know.
I went Friday to the grocery store and bought a few things for breakfast and lunch. I am eating apple and cinnamon oatmeal for breakfast and a salad for lunch. I am trying to cut out sweets again, because it’s a real problem. I don’t know why I can’t cut them out like I did soda over a year ago.
Which brings me to the water issue. I barely get a liter and a half down on good days. Just the other day I didn’t even drink a liter of water. And my goal is to drink 3 liters a day. It’s easy to do, I have done it, I did it for a few weeks straight.
And this makes me question my own personality. I am really good at starting something and keeping it up for a few weeks. Then it fizzles out and I can’t keep it up. I just can find the energy to continue and I don’t understand why I am this way. Maybe it has something to do with being bored…I get bored easily. Or maybe it’s because of my over active imagination and how I would rather be sitting somewhere comfortable, reading. I don’t know what it is…but if I want to keep my “Work Harder than Everyone” motto, I need to start actually doing it.
I am trying to get back on track. Actually this week, I will not try, I will do!
Okay, Yoda, I hear you.
I just have to get my mind back in order. I have to get back to scheduling things. I have to get back to my TO-DO list and actually get things done. I have to lose weight before my birthday in August and I want to lose at least 20 pounds by then.