This has not been a good week at all! I had Saturday, Sunday, and Monday off at the beginning of the week. My life went down the drain with those three days off. I don’t know what it is, but I didn’t do much of anything those three days. I could have written blog post, prepared my weekly agenda, cleaned my room. Nope, did nothing but read and play games. Granted, I have been working super hard and needed a day of relaxation, but not three.
By Tuesday I was no longer taking my vitamins, I had eaten a ton of sweets, and I was super depressed. I figured out that I need human interaction on a daily basis to feel…good? Which is odd seeing as I have always been the shy one.
So, my healthy eating went out the window. I haven’t been able to get back to drinking 3 liters of water a day. And I am having trouble getting back to taking my vitamins like I should. It’s amazing how long it takes to build a habit and how quickly you can break that habit. I am very frustrated with myself to be honest.
This week I have not lost any weight. I have not gained any either, unless it was about a pound. Lucky for me I didn’t completely destroy my progress and I can get back on it. But it has been so hard.
Friday night I was hit with a panic attack and all I wanted to do was curl into myself and disappear. I don’t know where it came from, but I do know that when I was on top of my game I was feeling good. Now things have fallen to the wayside and I need to get back to the person I was becoming.
Yeah, no matter how diligent you are in your health and fitness, sometimes things just don’t go the right way. Sometimes your mind takes on some muddled mess and ruins your hard work. Or maybe that is just who I am. Maybe it is all a part of my personality. I try to do too much and at some point I just break and do nothing at all. You can even see the decline in blog post from the past few weeks.
My goal this week is to get myself back to where I was a few weeks ago. I am cutting out sweets again, drinking 3 liters of water a day, and making sure to take my vitamins every day. This week is a rehabilitation week. Just focus on getting back to where I was. I also need to find some new way to deal with stress than grabbing something sweet. Maybe I should try the whole work out thing. lol