I worked at a company for 2 and a half years, making 18 dollars an hour. It was great. I always had money. I still couldn’t afford my own place, but I could afford my own food. I paid all my bills. I even took my family out to dinner all the time.
What I didn’t do, was save in case something happened. My silly mind said “I don’t have a lot to save, so I might as well spend it.” Silly brain, lesson learned.
I got my first check last week. My first check back in retail, which I love. I love being around new people everyday. What I don’t love is the pay. I now make 8 dollars an hour. A 10 dollar an hour pay cut. That’s huge!
Now I am having to get myself used to not being able to buy every book I fall in love with. I can no longer take my family out to eat at expensive restaurants. I can’t go hang out with friends at the movies. I am pretty much home bound at the moment because I have no money to do anything. Maybe it’s a good thing I bought all those books, at least I have a ton to read.
Of course, I will not be stuck in this place forever. I will have a writing career soon. I will have my own cake decorating business as well. It’s going to happen for me, but right now I am stuck in this place. This boring place that consist of working and staying at home.
Although…taking my puppy to the dog park is free. Unless you include gas, which my car is pretty good on gas. I still have a membership to a gym that I can’t afford to cancel. I have friends and family that like to hang out at the mall, and I can at least afford a drink from Starbucks every now and then.
It’s not terribly sad, my situation. It’s just different then what I am used to. I am broke as a joke, but I have so many other things going for me that it really doesn’t matter all that much.
Sure, it’s going to be really hard to get bills paid right now. But I have found the value of life again. I am not miserable at my job. I actually enjoy going to work. I have my sweet puppy and my awesome family waiting for me when I get home. And…I just rediscovered my love of babysitting.
At least now that I am stuck at home more I have more time to focus on my writing. Maybe this is just the thing I need to get my life where it should have been years ago.
I just have to get used to basic again.