I suddenly feel like my life has made a turn for the worst. I know that I am better off then some. I mean, my unemployment doesn’t effect where I live because my wonderful parents are not kicking me out of their house. The only thing that is going to get screwed up is my credit.
I worked so hard to build up my credit, and my credit score is still kind of low, but I just got it into the FAIR category. I don’t want to screw that up now. But because of my stupidity and my lack of maturity I let things slip by and I lost what little money I had coming in.
I have wasted the past few months. Sitting around, watching anime, playing games, reading. I haven’t written much, or studied much. I have been a useless lump of nothing. I could have finished my college course by now and re-written both of my books. I could be all studied up for my A+ certification test and baked a million cake pops. But instead I was lazy and wasteful.
Beating myself up about it isn’t going to change anything, I know this. I didn’t want to be in this situation where I was rushing to get a job because I was an idiot and blew through all my money like I still had a nice paying job. And now I have no skills worth anything. I want my own business but I have no idea how to start one or what kind I would even start. I am selling some of my favorite dolls just for money.
This is a sad sad situation. (Anyone get the Bowling for Soup lyric?)
Anyways, to top things off, my neck has been hurting for the past 5 days now. It’s just on the left side and at night it starts getting into my shoulder and arm. Which means, I need to go to the doctor. But did you know that when you lose your job you also lose insurance? Yes, I knew that, don’t be silly. So I am now in the position where I need money for a doctor and to pay my bills and no one seems to want to hire me.
Again I say, thank God that I have amazing parents that love me. If it wasn’t for them I would be in so much trouble right now.