A World of Possiblities

Today is the second day of being without a job.  I have gotten over the depression of it all.  I am actually enjoying myself so much!  I have had time to work out, write, read, and watch a little TV.  I don’t want to waste my time though, so I keep TV watching down to a minimum.

I have been getting a lot of work done on my book and I can’t wait to finish it.  I hope to have it done by some time next week.  Then I can start re-writing the first book, revising the second, planning the third, and working on a new story.  It’s so exciting to have so much free time.  I have no bed time, so nothing is stopping me from writing at least 1000 words a day, which is my daily goal.  Though, since I am not working it will be well over 1000 words a day.  I am just hoping that writers block doesn’t set in.

I feel like this is my first glimpse into the life that I will have, full-time, in the future.  I want the future to be now, but I don’t want to get my hopes up and feel discouraged when I have to go back to work because I need the money.  I have actually been considering getting a part time job for the moment, just for a little income, until I become famous! lol

Don’t get me wrong, I do not write just to be famous.  I write because this is what I was born to do.  I have to write to be okay.  If I don’t write I get depressed and pretty much go insane.  If I am able to write everyday, I stay in a pretty positive mood.  It’s weird, but maybe it’s just the sign of a writer.

The most exciting part of not having a job to worry about is the fact that I am not so tired all the time.  I got to where I wasn’t writing much because by time I got home I was so stressed and tired that I would just pass out.  Making myself sit down to write was just a hassle and I couldn’t do it.  I actually fell asleep at my desk once, trying to write while I was tired.  Not to mention that being so tired my imagination was going all wonky.

I read somewhere once that some people are the most creative when they are tired.  I am not one of those people.  If I am tired I get cranky and the last thing on my mind is writing.  I do get creative, but it’s usually on ways to escape what is causing me stress and ways to make my boss pay for being such a douche.  I don’t have a boss anymore!  Or a job that stresses me out because there is no work to do.  This may be the best thing that has ever happened to me.  I feel like I should thank my old boss for being such a butt and letting me go.

I can’t wait for this to be my life though.  To get up in the morning and go straight to writing to meet what ever deadline I may have for my next book.  I can’t wait until my day is filled with answering fan mail on breaks from writing and going on book signing tours.  I want it all.  I also want to meet Stephen King and tell him how awesome I think he is.  It would be great if he liked my work too, but I am not going to push that dream too hard.  I would be crushed if he said something bad about my work.  I would keep writing, because I don’t do it to please anyone but myself, but it would be heart breaking.

That is all the rambling I have for today.  Without a job, I have found that it might be easier to keep an updated blog too!  I love this life!


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